Sunday, December 2, 2012
Holding and Understanding
Last December, the beginning of my long downward spiral. I wish the month were over. Today, we discussed my fears in counseling. What is I think might happen? Truth is I'm not sure, but I worry an unexpected blow is lurking. I'm scared of crying myself to sleep again. Scared of hurting that way again. Scared of hoping for something that might never come. This year "I need someone. I need to hold somebody close. And I need more than this holding. I need someone to understand how I feel at a time like now. And the understanding must be part of the holding" (Betty Smith).