Saturday, November 9, 2013
"I have had a manic-depressive illness, also known as a bipolar disorder since I was eighteen years old. It is an illness that ensures that those who have it will experience a frightening, chaotic, and emotional ride. It is not a gentle or easy disease." ~Kay Refield Jamison Discovering, Diagnosing, and Treating my Bipolar Disorder has disrupted every aspect of my life. As if its not enough that I take four medications every single stinkin' day while attempting to not feel like a "sick" person, I also have to question the legitimacy of my emotions and actions. Am I feeling confident because I am well or become I am hypomanic? Do I think of my Him because I still care or am I simply OCD? Am I scared because my life is falling apart or is the anxiety problems? I don't know. I do know I'm terrified that the illness will overshadow who I am..and perhaps afraid the illness is who I've always been.