Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Let it Go

In the dead of night things seem bleak.  No really.  Here's a for instance: take look at craigslist, any city's craigslist.  This is what you will find: Cat owners abandoning their pets (dog owners are doing the same thing but, then again, dogs suck, especially little yippie ones).  Its sad.  I feel badly for these dumped kitties and, yet, what can I do?  Nothing because I live in a nice apartment with two bonded, purebred felines and, let's be brutally honest, I like things the way they are.  I am sorry that kittens are being abandoned but I have no desire to mess up the delicate ecosystem that is my life. Its 3:00am and what moves me in my sleep deprived state will fail to stir up the same emotion in the light of day.  In fact, I realized that its only in my sleep-deprived/slightly bored moments that I take the time to blog about what a douche-bag He is.  Its a stress reaction. 

Unlike Tumblr, you Guys normally get posts in my weaker moments.  Honestly, when I'm in the sunlight, I remember who I am and who he is.  I am a well educated, attractive 31 year old with multiple degrees, and hopes of getting a job.  He is an impotent old man.  I'm not sure he was ever the fine pinot noir I thought him to be, but I'll be generous here, maybe he was fifteen years ago.  At this point, in wine terms, he's turned to vinegar.  Best you could do is scrub the floor with him. Time to Let It Go!

PS: I emailed my therapist tonight and made a commitment to never journal, post, or pray about Him ever again.  And when he crosses my mind, I'll blast Idina Menzel's LET IT GO until He goes away.  The cold never bothered me anyway!

The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen
A kingdom of isolation,
And it looks like I’m the Queen.


The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside
Couldn’t keep it in, heaven knows I tried

Don’t let them in, don’t let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don’t feel, don’t let them know
Well, now they know

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door

I don’t care
What they’re going to say
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway

It’s funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can’t get to me at all

It’s time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong, no rules for me
I’m free


Let it go, let it go
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go, let it go
You’ll never see me cry


Here I stand
And here I'll stay
Let the storm rage on


My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I’m never going back,
The past is in the past

Let it go, let it go
And I'll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go, let it go
That perfect girl is gone

Here I stand
In the light of day
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway

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